Too Crazy?

Many times,i wonder to myself,hey,am i too perky and crazy at times? I mean,to the eyes of my seniors or my peers,i'm like kind a kid in their eyes.And sometimes find it hard to click with them..But when i'm with those younger then me,with my crazy perky self,it's kind of easy.But,i mean,it's kind of messy.Who am i really? Am i this crazt perky guy? Or quite?

Sometimes in the eyes of my seniors,they see me as immature,and think that i can do this or that,(Serving God etc) but i feel that,yes~! i can~! i can really much do so,even though i am like this,but this is who i am~! I can serve Him~! yes,i may be crazy and perky at times,but i guess this is me?
I guess,the right word to describe is unable to fit in i guess.I mean,sometimes i can't be accepted because like to crazy,and sometimes i think,man,am i too much? Well,but am i too much? Should i put a ducktape over my mount and only talk when only needed too? Should i stop being too crazy and perky? If so,then who am i then? I'm not sure either..
I guess maybe i'm going through a phase i think..
Lord help me through this time....

The Guitar

The Guitar,a musical instrument that is able to incite many different type of emotions in a person,able to bring one to a sense of peace ,tranquility and able to bring one closer to God..

I remembered,about 2 years ago,i had prayed so desperately for God to unable me to be able to play this instrument.And well,God did answer me,and i'm a full fletch guitarist.But this past few months,man have i been neglecting this gift from God..

I remembered,i used to practise passionately with this instrument,now,it's like just any other objects in the house.Just like an old vase left in the house,man do i feel guilty now..Moreover,i remembered serving God in church used to be something like a dream to me.Haha,i remembered day dreaming of the day that i would be able to serve God on stage with the guitar..And man,did God answer me..

But recently,i've been treating this great privellage from God as a routine or duty.Serving him without a heart or purpose,just doing it for the sake of doing it.I guess,almost all worship team members go through the same thing,sometimes it becomes like a routine or duty to do it.Haha,and even feeling that it's draining our time because we have to spend the time practising and waking up extra early to go to church or practise,=P ....

But i know,that serving HIM on stage is a great great great privellage,and well,i must stop neglecting this gift eh?I must use it to the 110% because of his faithfullness and greatness in answering my prayers...

WAKE UP BEVEN~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Breaking

I remembered,during FWP i said a prayer to God,asking him to break me inorder to grow in him.And now,i realise he is really breaking me.About a few weeks later FWP,i guess i had backslided,or in a few ways gone back to the things i used to do..And,for a very long time now,it had continued consistently and consistently and not knowing whta had heppen untill yesterday God reavealed to me.I remembered i said that prayer in FWP,and God had really put it into effect.It all makes sense...All this things that had heppen,all the struggles it all has a purpose,to change me.To change me.I now know,that asking God to break you,is something not to play play with,God will really break you,break you to your knees inorder to change you.And with the things you least expect..
Moreover i remembered what God said to me yesterday,
Beven,now,with the knowledge God has given to you,you must find back the path of rightheousness..
But i am trully finding it difficult to find back the path of rightheousness.It's been very hard and even now i still struggle..
Asking God to break you is something not to play around with,be prepared to ask him,really be prepared,if not,then don't..Seriously,take it from me.....
I hope i'll be able to find back the path of righteousness....

Cherish and be contented..

Gosh,since moving to Omega,it has been quite hard for me...I'm still not able to like mix around..I really miss the good old days...I have learnt to cherish and be contented with what i have.I remembered i used to complain alot about my old school,but i realise,how dumb was i,i should have not complain but enjoy every moment there while it still last..=T ,boy,now i know,to cherish every little thing that God has given to us,even if it's not significant or stands out among the crowd,must cherish every little small thing for in everything there is a purpose under heaven..=D Okay,guess need to continue and endure for another 1year plus i guess.. Shalom..=D

16 turning on 17

A short post to share about me feeling about turning 17.

I can't believe it,i'm 17 man~! 17..I really can't believe it.I guess,17 is quite old ady right?Almost nearing the end of the so called (Happy years of the Adolsense) and even with that,i still don't look 17~! To many people first impression of me,they'll say i'm 14 or 15 i guess because of my looks (not saying i'm suai okay =p) and of the way i act....


A full year has passed since my last brithday,i can really see the changest in my physical,mental and spirittual life.But,yalah,i'm still a kid in heart lah,not yet 100% muture lah,guess it takes a long time for me to muture eh =p..But hey ~!i guess,most importantly i have grown in the Lord since last year,yes yes,i have had my ups and downs this year in my spiritual walk with God,but hey,we all change through this things and all have this right?And this are barriers we have to face in life right? Amen? But,deep in me,i know that i still need alot and alot of changing and molding left to be done in me.ALOT...

I thank God for this blessed day,that i was born into this world,(although it was early) but i still thank him..=D I hope that the year ahead would be an awesome year ahead.A year to enjoy,change,suffer(inorder the change),mold and grow...
And what is my wish or expectation? Hmm,thats confidential...=D , God Bless everyone~!


I live for him,and it's as simple as that~!

It ended as soon as it started.

Well,the holidays are about to be over.This past 10days and nights had really been a time filled with great excitement,fun,laughter and fullfillment to me.

One of the highlight of this holiday i guess was being able to reunite with my auntie,Japanese cousin's and one of my cousin's wife which i've not seen for a long time now. I still can recall the excitement when i and my mum were waiting for them at Changi Airport,i was practically up on my sit the whole time,staring at the arrival hall,waiting for them to arrive.

Moreover,all of our family managed to reunite during that short period in Batu Pahat,like one big happy family again.It felt like,wow,this is my home,all the people i used to see when i was growing up,are all here.That feeling of amazement of how we all had grown up so quickly.But i got to say,while we were there,we ate and ate and ate till there was no end,haha,and i got to say,i'm a rounder person after that trip back to my kampung.

Not to forget the trip the Pulau Tioman,it was simply magnificent,by magnificent,i mean the sea and the view,as for the facilities and the accomidation,err,not same said.During this trip to Pulau Tioman,i experience so many things.One of it is snorkling and swimming with the fishes.It was very fun,and i still can recall the image,of looking everywhere around me there were fishes and fishes that's all,you can't see anything but fishes,and many of the fishes practically swam right infront of my face.Not the forget,all the corals,rocks,etc..

Other then that,i also went diving for the first time in my life.Diving,yea,but i got to say,the time before i jump into the water to dive,i was sooo scared for my life,haha,i was praying to God for his protection,and moreover you know what?

Usually to go diving you need a license,which my mum had after 3 month's,but the instructer just taught us for around 3-5mins only and we were asked to dive into the water.At that moment i so so frikin scared,but i really thank God,after i went into the water,it was allright.The feeling of being in the water,where to look everywhere around is just water,water,water,fishes,rocks,sand and corals was so nice.It really felt as if i was dreaming and totally unreal. At first,i didn't wanted to go diving,but in the end,i wish i'm able to go again,because it was just simply magnificent.

The time spend with them was simply priceless i would say.And seeing them off in Changi Airport yesterday was quite sad i guess.That the 10 days and 9 nights had ended and they had to go back.But i'm glad to say,i didn't cry as they walked into the departure terminal.Usually i would cry because of how sad i was that they had to leave,but this time,a smile of gladness lied in my face knowing in heart that i managed to spend the best of my holiday with them.But,okay lah,tears came rolling from my eyes as i and my mum were on our way back to JB,but it was tears of gladness and fullfillment of being glad to spend all those moment with them.

As i look back now,i can't help but realize how time had past so fast,as i look back at all the old albums and pictures,while we re still kids and playing around,but now we are all grown up,okay lah,not all grown up atlease for me yet lah,but you should get the point.I'm just amazed at how time can past as you go on with your daily life.

As said,time can be one's best friend and another's worse enemy.

This holiday had really been awesome,and i would treasure it in my heart.As a chapter closes,another new chapter will begin,and it ended as soon as it started,from the first day to the last.I've learnt and experience so many things which i'm glad to live through.I guess i haven been this happy from quite awhile now,i guess i'm really gonna miss those times,untill the next time bah.Life will have to continue in one way or another....

MATA NE,

Ken Sabro

Exam~~~

Haaa,will be having my exam very soon.It's knocking at my doorstep...The horrors of exam has came back to haunt me once again..I've done my best,and shall leave it totally in God's hand,haaaa,if i get good result,i will praise him,i get not so good result,i shall also praise him....All glory to God....

I realised that the results i got during the precious exam,are miracles...That God had really blessed and helped me,and i hope,that God will bless me during this exam again...How wonderful and awesome is him...None can compare to him..

Lord,i shall leave this exam completely into my hands,that whatever result i get,is for your glory and your glory only.....